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The long road filled with potholes of doubt and detours through unhappiness has finally presented a fork for me to choose my own path.

Left: to continue down a path that left me empty and always craving more, or

Right: along a path that always seemed to have brighter days.

I've been going to bed each night with a smile on my face, completely ready to face the day ahead of me when I wake up. No matter how much sleep I deprive myself of during the week, I am eager to continue down the path of community during the weekend. My goal in almost everything I do is to attain a sense of community and to join together as a unified group of people to be one, all supporting one another through each and every detour.

I have found community.

I have found happiness.

Although this week posed challenges that I wasn't ready to face and left me leaving school with tears in my eyes, I find myself looking at the bigger picture tonight.

As I left a Christmas party earlier this evening and stepped into my car, I realized that all of the potential negatives that have been engulfing me this week were just a breath of fresh air in disguise. The defeat and embarrassment I felt when I received my part in the play or even the feeling of disappointment when I recalled the fact that I wasn't allowed to apply out of state for college, all of those factors kept calling towards one thing- Junior High Ministry. With those negatives came the positives of Addy, the 6th grade girl in the ornamented christmas sweater and even the fire that I have been consumed with to get the ball rolling on an upcoming charity event. No matter how I choose to see my previous week, I can always agree on the realization that life is great.

I have found my steady group of friends and have come to feel wanted and important to the people I have been surrounding myself with lately.

One of my best friends Ryanne told me that she wanted me to write about something happy. Reluctantly, I didn't just in spite of her, but in reality, that is all I wanted to write about.

All I wanted to write about were the nights spent staying up late watching movies.

All I wanted to write about were the new friends made and the old relationships strengthened.

All I wanted to write about was the peace inside my heart that I have finally attained.

There is comfort in chaos.

and I fully attest to that now.

No matter no stressful my week has been or how many fights I got into at home, it all just seems to appear farther and farther away the further down the road to happiness I travel on.

I chose Right instead of Left.

What will you do?

Venture down a road filled with potholes and isolation, or turn the corner into a group of people who truly care.